introduction

I am Bibi, I come from the netherlands and I am a 23 year old mother and engaged to my boyfriend Roy. My son is 5 months and 3 weeks old, his name is Diablo, but he's more like an angel to me though, he is the best thing ever happend to me and he made me grow and grow so fast that sometimes I even startle myself how 'old' I am getting.

now what's going on in my life...

Since 2 months we live in a house, we used to live in a real small appartment, with only 1 bedroom to sleep in, so we slept with diablo on our room, which I don't mind actually, 'cause the first months I wanted him on my room anyhow. We have been very busy trying to make this house my little palace but I just keep on getting more and more ideas everyday.Oh how I would love to sleep on the attic, if we would've had a bigger window, cause the ventilation and light is minimalistic.

But today was a good day though, we finally got a door in our backyard so nobody comes in the yard. To me I waited for ages but when I talk with other people we seem to be fast... okay...?I just love it that we can sit in the backyard, and nobody looking right into my face you know? I just love to have my privacy .
Today we got lamps to hang above my dinertable, so we can finally sit there at night. We finally got a peg to hang our coats , I just went crazy of all them coats hanging over my chairs and eveywhere.Yesterday we had the last door painted and now only the skirtings has to be painted to finish the painting work.

I am on a diet, just started 3 days ago. It goes kind of well especially now roy is supporting me, he likes me the way I am , but I am way too heavy and it makes things real hard to do. I also wanna run with my kid when he gets older and I really want a correction on my tummy (tummy tuck?), I got way too much skin leaping over eachother and it starts to sweat, irritating and after no more than 1 hour of walking on a warm day I get an infection. I am tired of it and I know I can do it if I get the right support and not a man that says why are you trying to lose weight? He saw yesterday the red marks on my skin and explained that's why ( I never showed it though, I was ashamed...I know we even got a kid but still) I want to lose weight, I used to weigh 350lbs now it's 250lbs , I would just love to get to 180lbs and get the operation so I can just live a normal happy life. also not having to go to special stores to get a nice fitting pants or jeans that doesn't cut into my skin or something like that.

First thing I am going to do now, is getting calorie free drinks, cause that's where I get most sugars from. other foods I just gotta take a little less,and veggies for him with sauce and for me with no sauce ( I plan on getting loads negative veggies and I need some green apples too!) 'cause I can't let my man go on diet with me 'cause he's almost underweight so. But I really look forward to start dieting again!